I feel like I should be writing a blog, but I don't know what to write about! Any suggestions? Haha.
I almost made it up the pole on Saturday. It's about 11-12 feet tall and I almost made it. I was like 2 feet from the top. It's very hard...looks easy but is hard as hell!
OH, I was recently informed that the last week of my pole fitness class is "dress up" week!!! :shock: Ummm, I'm full of stretchmarks and cellulite, I have no idea what I could wear. We are supposed to dress "sexy". But at the same time will be climbing poles so I can't wear a skirt or something without some spankies or whatever the hell those things are called underneath. Vic has been looking online for me. If I didn't have stretchmarks it'd be less of an issue for me. I don't look bad for just having a baby 3 months ago, but the stretchmarks still aren't pretty! So I have to cover my stomach and the top half of my big ol pale thighs. Some of the girls in the intermediate level were saying that the thigh-high boots help you grip on the pole when you're doing some of the airborne moves. Ahhh I'm scared haha! Vic is taking me to a stripper clothing store tomorrow after I get off haha. I'm quite certain it's for his own eyes not just for my pole fitness class. Probably the same reason he's talking about buying me a pole. I love love love this pole fitness class, but am terrified of trying to find and feel sexy in stripper clothes. Of course, you don't have to dress up if you don't want...but I don't want to be a stick in the mud! OK, that is all!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
Damn you Strickland!
So today while I was doing my mail route, the daycare stopped me and let me know that they are, indeed, cutting ELI! Well crap. This could turn out one of two ways: good or bad. Haha. I have internship to finish and they don't count my hours for school and internship...not to mention I'll hardly be working and Vic will be working less because of clinicals and school. So either they can approve us now based on what we're working/earning and we'll have a copay for both girls (which I want to add, Vic is NOT Ky's father, so why does his income count towards her care? He should have rights if that's the case!!!) and we'll just have to hope they don't select to verify anything until after the semester is over...or we'll be screwed. Who knows, but all I can do is hope that it turns out well!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
pole dancing
is awesome. I'm loving this pole fitness class. It's really working muscles that I may not have ever worked before haha. Seriously, I might come out of there sore and bruised, but I'm OK with that. My goal is to be able to climb the pole. Granted I have 10 less lbs to get up the pole, but I actually made it one more step up on Tuesdays class than in the intro class. I'm proud of myself :) Vic said he's going to set money aside from every paycheck to buy a pole for me to practice with at home haha. Those things are expensive!!!
There are some girls who went through one of the full beginner sessions before and they did some moves last class. Can you say jealous?! I want to do that stuff. The class is Tues, Thurs and Sat, but she just added a Wednesday class starting next week. So, I might as well get Vic's moneys worth and go to all of them, right?! I think I'll continue into the fall and do a full 7 week session as well :) Love it!
There are some girls who went through one of the full beginner sessions before and they did some moves last class. Can you say jealous?! I want to do that stuff. The class is Tues, Thurs and Sat, but she just added a Wednesday class starting next week. So, I might as well get Vic's moneys worth and go to all of them, right?! I think I'll continue into the fall and do a full 7 week session as well :) Love it!
Photo obsession
I got Ky's pictures taken "professionally" at walmart when she was a month old. Then not again until she was 6 months old. That's when I got a job at Picture People. So she got 6 mo pics, 2 rounds of Halloween/Fall Pics, 2 rounds of Christmas pics (she was sick the first time), Valentine's pics and then 1st birthday pics. Then Picture People closed. I moved on to Portrait Innovations for Easter pics and then Christmas pics. Since then it's just birthday and Christmas pictures. She's a toddler now so her looks don't change as much as often.
So now I'm thinking I have to make up for this with Kamaya too. So, I think I will do every 3 months for her first year and a half or so. The exception will be Christmas, which will come a month earlier than the 3 mos, then 1st birthday pics will be April, so there will be a little over 3 months between those.
Problem is, I don't get 50% off pictures anymore because I'm not getting them taken at my job at a photo studio. And Portrait Innovations doesn't have the option to put 12 photos on one page like I did with Ky's. Sigh.
I told Vic that's the one thing I couldn't go cheap for if/when we get married. I love photos, taking them, having them, scrapbooking them, etc. I just love pictures. Perhaps they help make up for my terrible memory! It's like an obsession though. I want pictures. So now making an appt is on my to-do list. Perhaps I should schedule that for Saturday?
So now I'm thinking I have to make up for this with Kamaya too. So, I think I will do every 3 months for her first year and a half or so. The exception will be Christmas, which will come a month earlier than the 3 mos, then 1st birthday pics will be April, so there will be a little over 3 months between those.
Problem is, I don't get 50% off pictures anymore because I'm not getting them taken at my job at a photo studio. And Portrait Innovations doesn't have the option to put 12 photos on one page like I did with Ky's. Sigh.
I told Vic that's the one thing I couldn't go cheap for if/when we get married. I love photos, taking them, having them, scrapbooking them, etc. I just love pictures. Perhaps they help make up for my terrible memory! It's like an obsession though. I want pictures. So now making an appt is on my to-do list. Perhaps I should schedule that for Saturday?
Bittersweet move
So I've been trying to weigh the pros and cons of moving out of Toledo and closer to Medina. Not necessarily in Medina, but somewhere on that side of Ohio.
Pros:
-I'll be closer to my mom, who has a room for the girls in her new house
-Get further away from SD and his family
-Move closer to friends
-Getting out of this craphole known as Toledo
-Having babysitters!
Cons
-Unfamiliarity with resources, areas. This is a big one for me. Toledo has a ton of resources for moms, school counselors, etc.
-Further away from friends, Vic's family, etc
-Taking the girls out of Apple Tree, I really LOVE their daycare. Kyliana has made so many friends that she could potentially grow up with.
-Vic having to move away from the Tennis community and having to start over in a new place
I may have to add more as I think of them. This is a very hard decision for me. Change blows, and it won't just be change for me, but for Vic, Ky and Kami also.
Pros:
-I'll be closer to my mom, who has a room for the girls in her new house
-Get further away from SD and his family
-Move closer to friends
-Getting out of this craphole known as Toledo
-Having babysitters!
Cons
-Unfamiliarity with resources, areas. This is a big one for me. Toledo has a ton of resources for moms, school counselors, etc.
-Further away from friends, Vic's family, etc
-Taking the girls out of Apple Tree, I really LOVE their daycare. Kyliana has made so many friends that she could potentially grow up with.
-Vic having to move away from the Tennis community and having to start over in a new place
I may have to add more as I think of them. This is a very hard decision for me. Change blows, and it won't just be change for me, but for Vic, Ky and Kami also.
Why do the traumatize my child so?
Today I was walking down to Ky's room at school and noticed a bag in her cubby. There were 2 outfits, a Hannah Montana watch and a letter for me. I opened it and it was from the SDs mom. She called me July 3rd and I have the number "blocked" so it just goes straight to voicemail. She left a vm saying she had these outfits for Ky and hadn't seen her in a while.
Before I continue, I must say....it is NOT MY responsibility to make sure she sees Ky. I don't care for her or any of SDs family in the first place. But if we had the court schedule for visitation it clearly states that visiting grandparents and other family should be done on that parents time. He agreed to get her every other Sunday, all Sunday and has only taken advantage of that once. He hasn't seen her in a month, and I don't know that he took her to his mom's house when he did see her. She only lives in Toledo. She should be calling her son about that NOT ME. As a matter of fact, I don't believe that she should even call me at all.
Anyhow, so I rolled my eyes and walked in the room. Both teachers came up to me bombarding me with questions about her. They asked if it was OK that she visit, which at that time I said I wish she wouldn't, but it's not a big deal. Then they told me what happened. Apparently she showed up right after they had laid down for nap. Ky wasn't asleep yet. When Ky saw her, she freaked. She started screaming and crying bloody murder. She was terrified and ran to her teacher clinging on to her. So SDs mom left. But it didn’t' stop. The teacher said Ky was so scared that she was shaking and flat out said that she was scared. She was having like a panic attack looking up every couple of minutes and darting her eyes around the room to make sure she wasn't there. Apparently she wouldn't go back on her cot. She continued to freak out and woke up the whole classroom (18 kids total!!), she was given warnings to get back on her cot and wouldn't. So then she had to be removed from the room so the other kids could nap. I totally get that the other kids shouldn't have been woken up, and I feel bad about that. It's just that she got punished, in a sense, for being scared, which wouldn't have happened if SD's mom would not have visited. Imagine how terrible I felt while I heard all of this.
Kyliana has NEVER acted like this, not even with SD. She’s screamed and cried, but not for 2 hours, inconsolable and shaking! I didn’t call SD simply because I don’t want to remind him that he hasn’t seen Kyliana in a while and then want to see her. Besides, he hasn’t taken her to his mom’s house for a reason. He’s talked badly about her before and is always annoyed with her, so I don’t know if it would even be beneficial to bring up to him. I got a phone call while I was in my pole fitness class from a number I didn’t know. I think it may have been his dad’s number….but I don’t know so I don’t want to block it. But they didn’t leave a message. I am not their family, so it’s not OK that they call me. They should communicate through SD. I NEVER return their phone calls, what makes them think I would now?!
After I heard the story, I told them I didn’t want her visiting. They said they would tell her she can’t visit during nap time…and I said I’d prefer her not to visit at all because then that would mean one of the two teachers would have to comfort and console Kyliana, which takes away from their job of looking over all the other children. And while, yes, I want them to comfort and console Kyliana, situations like this shouldn’t happen so they have to do it for 2 hours! Needless to say, she got no nap today. And tomorrow I have a conference with them to discuss ways we can get on the same page about dealing with this new separation anxiety (that only happens at school) and clingy behavior.
I’m just really upset about all of this. His mom is so freakin clueless that I’m sure she doesn’t understand that Kyliana doesn’t want her to visit. We talked about it on the way home and she said she didn’t want her to visit and that she doesn’t like her. She also told me that she was scared of her. Why? She wouldn’t say…but she liked the Hannah Montana watch…but doesn’t even watch the show. I am so tempted to go throw the crap on her doorstep and tell her we don’t want it because she traumatized the poor child to give her clothes we don’t really need in the first place. UGH.
Before I continue, I must say....it is NOT MY responsibility to make sure she sees Ky. I don't care for her or any of SDs family in the first place. But if we had the court schedule for visitation it clearly states that visiting grandparents and other family should be done on that parents time. He agreed to get her every other Sunday, all Sunday and has only taken advantage of that once. He hasn't seen her in a month, and I don't know that he took her to his mom's house when he did see her. She only lives in Toledo. She should be calling her son about that NOT ME. As a matter of fact, I don't believe that she should even call me at all.
Anyhow, so I rolled my eyes and walked in the room. Both teachers came up to me bombarding me with questions about her. They asked if it was OK that she visit, which at that time I said I wish she wouldn't, but it's not a big deal. Then they told me what happened. Apparently she showed up right after they had laid down for nap. Ky wasn't asleep yet. When Ky saw her, she freaked. She started screaming and crying bloody murder. She was terrified and ran to her teacher clinging on to her. So SDs mom left. But it didn’t' stop. The teacher said Ky was so scared that she was shaking and flat out said that she was scared. She was having like a panic attack looking up every couple of minutes and darting her eyes around the room to make sure she wasn't there. Apparently she wouldn't go back on her cot. She continued to freak out and woke up the whole classroom (18 kids total!!), she was given warnings to get back on her cot and wouldn't. So then she had to be removed from the room so the other kids could nap. I totally get that the other kids shouldn't have been woken up, and I feel bad about that. It's just that she got punished, in a sense, for being scared, which wouldn't have happened if SD's mom would not have visited. Imagine how terrible I felt while I heard all of this.
Kyliana has NEVER acted like this, not even with SD. She’s screamed and cried, but not for 2 hours, inconsolable and shaking! I didn’t call SD simply because I don’t want to remind him that he hasn’t seen Kyliana in a while and then want to see her. Besides, he hasn’t taken her to his mom’s house for a reason. He’s talked badly about her before and is always annoyed with her, so I don’t know if it would even be beneficial to bring up to him. I got a phone call while I was in my pole fitness class from a number I didn’t know. I think it may have been his dad’s number….but I don’t know so I don’t want to block it. But they didn’t leave a message. I am not their family, so it’s not OK that they call me. They should communicate through SD. I NEVER return their phone calls, what makes them think I would now?!
After I heard the story, I told them I didn’t want her visiting. They said they would tell her she can’t visit during nap time…and I said I’d prefer her not to visit at all because then that would mean one of the two teachers would have to comfort and console Kyliana, which takes away from their job of looking over all the other children. And while, yes, I want them to comfort and console Kyliana, situations like this shouldn’t happen so they have to do it for 2 hours! Needless to say, she got no nap today. And tomorrow I have a conference with them to discuss ways we can get on the same page about dealing with this new separation anxiety (that only happens at school) and clingy behavior.
I’m just really upset about all of this. His mom is so freakin clueless that I’m sure she doesn’t understand that Kyliana doesn’t want her to visit. We talked about it on the way home and she said she didn’t want her to visit and that she doesn’t like her. She also told me that she was scared of her. Why? She wouldn’t say…but she liked the Hannah Montana watch…but doesn’t even watch the show. I am so tempted to go throw the crap on her doorstep and tell her we don’t want it because she traumatized the poor child to give her clothes we don’t really need in the first place. UGH.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Giving Vs Selfish
Why, Why, WHY am I so giving. Not that it's a bad thing, but I sometimes hate that quality about myself. I don't want to sound selfish, but it's frustrating when you're constantly giving and giving and giving but nobody returns the favor. I LOVE to shop, especially for kids and babies. Particularly because I'll see something that my kids don't need but I'll know someone else who has a kid who could. And I always have coupons that I hate to let go to waste.
I've gone all out for several people for their baby showers...none of whom even came to a baby shower for me. My coworkers for example. I've had 2 coworkers have babies since I started there. I made them both diaper cakes, bought outfits, etc. Neither of them have bought a thing for Kamaya, though they continually promise to do so. It's one thing if you just don't get my child anything, no biggie, but it's a whole different ball game if you say you're going to do something and never do. I'm not the richest person in the world, hell...I am well below the poverty line, but still somehow manage to do such nice things for people. Not to mention, I was/am financially raising Kyliana all by myself. ($38 in 2 months does not count as helping...)Where's karma here? I've known several people, in person and online, who have had girls. I gave away all of Ky's old clothes up through 12 months....and most of those people could more easily afford to buy those clothes than I could. Must be nice. I gave away Ky's old crib for free. FREE. Granted it was a decade old and well worn-in, and I kept the mattress...but still...another nice thing I did for someone. Is it selfish of me to even be thinking like this? I feel like it is.
Don't get me wrong, I'm so grateful for those people who did help us get the things we needed for Kamaya. But it's so crazy how none of them were the people who I helped out. As we speak...or as I type...I've got bags full of stuff for other people's babies....none of whom bought anything for either of my babies. I don't even know what I should do about this! It seems like a terrible thing to vent about...being too giving. Sigh....
I've gone all out for several people for their baby showers...none of whom even came to a baby shower for me. My coworkers for example. I've had 2 coworkers have babies since I started there. I made them both diaper cakes, bought outfits, etc. Neither of them have bought a thing for Kamaya, though they continually promise to do so. It's one thing if you just don't get my child anything, no biggie, but it's a whole different ball game if you say you're going to do something and never do. I'm not the richest person in the world, hell...I am well below the poverty line, but still somehow manage to do such nice things for people. Not to mention, I was/am financially raising Kyliana all by myself. ($38 in 2 months does not count as helping...)Where's karma here? I've known several people, in person and online, who have had girls. I gave away all of Ky's old clothes up through 12 months....and most of those people could more easily afford to buy those clothes than I could. Must be nice. I gave away Ky's old crib for free. FREE. Granted it was a decade old and well worn-in, and I kept the mattress...but still...another nice thing I did for someone. Is it selfish of me to even be thinking like this? I feel like it is.
Don't get me wrong, I'm so grateful for those people who did help us get the things we needed for Kamaya. But it's so crazy how none of them were the people who I helped out. As we speak...or as I type...I've got bags full of stuff for other people's babies....none of whom bought anything for either of my babies. I don't even know what I should do about this! It seems like a terrible thing to vent about...being too giving. Sigh....
Ch-ch-ch-changes...
Isn't it so funny how so many people are not open or don't do well with change, yet we are ever-changing? Some changes happen rather quickly, others are so gradual that we hardly notice them. Hopefully those changes are positive ones most of the time, but we all know that there's negative ones too.
Other people change on us. Like when you first start dating someone and they do all sorts of things....then once you start getting comfortable with them, they stop cleaning, or cooking, or whatever it may be. And then you're supposed to pick up their slack.
Or you change yourself. I hate cooking, but when it was just me I was the only one who would/could cook. But now that I'm in a relationship with a man who likes to cook, why should I do it? I don't like to, only do it when I absolutely have to. And my body image and self esteem have changed. Granted no matter what most women's bodies change after having a baby. I put on a bit of weight after having Ky, but I still had confidence in myself and I still wore bikinis. But now that I've had another child who made my stomach look like a roadmap with all the stretchmarks she gave me...well my bikini days are over. I feel ashamed when I look at myself in the mirror. I criticize everything about myself. But before kids I was so happy with my body. It feels like no matter what I do I'll never have that confidence back. I'm working on it, but it takes FOREVER to lose weight! And even when I hit my goal, I'm sure I won't be happy and will want to lose more. I've become self conscious of everything! I try to cover up everything. I hate wearing tank tops because my arms are too fat. I won't wear shorts unless they're bermuda-style because my thighs have exploded. Shirts need to be long enough so that they won't ride up and show off my love handles, belly pooch or back fat. I can hardly bear to show off my calves because even they have cellulite on them. I love my kids, but they really didn't have to do this to my body!!!
The things that you plan for your life change. 2 years ago I planned to start and finish my Master's program by December 2008. Ok, well things got bumped back and then bumped again. And at this point, less than 300 internship hours away (and tens of thousands of dollars in loans) I'm not even sure that's what I want to do with my life. I hardly find any enjoyment in it. Don't get me wrong, it'd be a great gig...but I had some bad experiences last semester and I'm so over it. It's all taking more energy and time that I had ever planned. And I watched people who could use a lot of work, but had the same internship supervisors as me yet none of the problems they gave me, graduate without a hitch. WTF is that about. Yes, I'm jealous. Why do I feel like this shit only happens to me?! Well, yeah depression, but still! Anywho, if I could choose, I'd not even work at all....which brings me to my next topic. When Vic and I first started dating the plan was that he'd be a physician's assistant and I'd stay at home. We'd perhaps open me a little photo studio, but I'd otherwise care for the children that we'd have. Then his plans about the PA thing didn't work out. Now he's almost done with school to be a respiratory therapist. So I get that things didn't work out for him, but now I have to change my life plan too because I won't be able to be a SAHM. Not.Cool. I will be earning more money with having holidays, weekends and the whole summer off. Granted I'll have a Masters and he a Bachelors, but it seems we will certainly live more comfortably with my income in addition to his. Hopefully someone gives me a big box of joy for my birthday or something.
Speaking of Vic...if you would have asked me 3.5 years ago if I would ever date him, I would have said no. Now look at us...going on 3 years together and a baby! Funny how things change. What else has changed? 5 months ago I would have told you I don't plan on getting married anytime soon and I was fine with just being in a relationship. Now, we've ring shopped and my mind is on marriage. That was a mighty quick change of opinion huh?!
Other people change on us. Like when you first start dating someone and they do all sorts of things....then once you start getting comfortable with them, they stop cleaning, or cooking, or whatever it may be. And then you're supposed to pick up their slack.
Or you change yourself. I hate cooking, but when it was just me I was the only one who would/could cook. But now that I'm in a relationship with a man who likes to cook, why should I do it? I don't like to, only do it when I absolutely have to. And my body image and self esteem have changed. Granted no matter what most women's bodies change after having a baby. I put on a bit of weight after having Ky, but I still had confidence in myself and I still wore bikinis. But now that I've had another child who made my stomach look like a roadmap with all the stretchmarks she gave me...well my bikini days are over. I feel ashamed when I look at myself in the mirror. I criticize everything about myself. But before kids I was so happy with my body. It feels like no matter what I do I'll never have that confidence back. I'm working on it, but it takes FOREVER to lose weight! And even when I hit my goal, I'm sure I won't be happy and will want to lose more. I've become self conscious of everything! I try to cover up everything. I hate wearing tank tops because my arms are too fat. I won't wear shorts unless they're bermuda-style because my thighs have exploded. Shirts need to be long enough so that they won't ride up and show off my love handles, belly pooch or back fat. I can hardly bear to show off my calves because even they have cellulite on them. I love my kids, but they really didn't have to do this to my body!!!
The things that you plan for your life change. 2 years ago I planned to start and finish my Master's program by December 2008. Ok, well things got bumped back and then bumped again. And at this point, less than 300 internship hours away (and tens of thousands of dollars in loans) I'm not even sure that's what I want to do with my life. I hardly find any enjoyment in it. Don't get me wrong, it'd be a great gig...but I had some bad experiences last semester and I'm so over it. It's all taking more energy and time that I had ever planned. And I watched people who could use a lot of work, but had the same internship supervisors as me yet none of the problems they gave me, graduate without a hitch. WTF is that about. Yes, I'm jealous. Why do I feel like this shit only happens to me?! Well, yeah depression, but still! Anywho, if I could choose, I'd not even work at all....which brings me to my next topic. When Vic and I first started dating the plan was that he'd be a physician's assistant and I'd stay at home. We'd perhaps open me a little photo studio, but I'd otherwise care for the children that we'd have. Then his plans about the PA thing didn't work out. Now he's almost done with school to be a respiratory therapist. So I get that things didn't work out for him, but now I have to change my life plan too because I won't be able to be a SAHM. Not.Cool. I will be earning more money with having holidays, weekends and the whole summer off. Granted I'll have a Masters and he a Bachelors, but it seems we will certainly live more comfortably with my income in addition to his. Hopefully someone gives me a big box of joy for my birthday or something.
Speaking of Vic...if you would have asked me 3.5 years ago if I would ever date him, I would have said no. Now look at us...going on 3 years together and a baby! Funny how things change. What else has changed? 5 months ago I would have told you I don't plan on getting married anytime soon and I was fine with just being in a relationship. Now, we've ring shopped and my mind is on marriage. That was a mighty quick change of opinion huh?!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
So much to blog about...
...but so little time. It's 1am here and I have to work at 9am. Fortunately though, tomorrow I won't have to do the PM mail route at work, I'll be leaving early to go to get some different meds (hopefully). My anxiety is getting worse and I think I have PPD, but the Zoloft is supressing it a little. I'm not pregnant anymore, so we should be safe to try something new! I have anger issues brought out by my depression and they have gotten worse. Like ZERO patience worse. I want to enjoy my children while they're this little.
I plan to blog some more tomorrow. I'm uploading pictures to my photobucket right now. I have a freakin ton from this weekend. While I'm waiting, I'll talk about my weekend. Friday Vic didn't work til 2:30. I didn't have work and daycare/school was closed. So we hung out at home that day. We did a small bit of shopping that evening. Saturday we did some last minute things. Then we got ready and went downtown to the river (maumee river). Vic and I started going in July of 05...shortly before I found out I was pregnant with Kyliana. Back then we were just friends. Now we've carried on this tradition for the 5th time! It's gonna be crazy if we move, we'll have to start all over!
Anyhow, we went down there early so we could go to the little festival. They advertised a family fun place and we'd never been on that side of the river. So we decided it was too much to walk all the way around to the bridge, and we weren't going to pay to park, then drive to the other side and pay again to park...so we took a water taxi. First time ever in my nearly 7 years of being here that I was on the Maumee river, crazy! Kyliana and Kamaya both had their first boat ride. It wasn't a long one, but we got round-trip tickets and off we went. Kamaya got freaked out about the boat's high-pitched horn, but they were both fine. On the other side we found a bouncy place, balloon animals and face-painting...all of which Ky did. She got fireworks on her cheek and a ladybug balloon bracelet (which I also had to get one, but I drew the line at the face painting...I did that before I left the house haha).
So back to the water taxi we went. We got smart this year and brought Ky's potty with us...no more port-a-potty lines for us. We had reservations at Zia's which is authentic Italian at 7pm. YUM. Always go there for the 4th!! Then we got our blankets and found our spot to watch the fireworks. Toledo has good fireworks shows. We were quite early so we hung out on the blanket doing sparklers, snakes, and lighting up our glow necklaces and bracelets. Once the fireworks started Vic covered Kami's ears with a blanket and his hands. So LOVED watching them. And Ky always does. It was a great night.
Then today, SD was supposed to get Ky...think he did? You're right, he didn't...and didn't even have the common courtesy to call, color me surprised :rolleyes: So we decided that our kitchenette thingy needed some reorganization and bought another shelf. We don't have a pantry so we put shelves in the kitchenette and put our food on there. BOY does it look better already! I'm not done, but will be soon :). I love feeling orgainzed. Now on to the basement... :(
Some funny things Ky said this weekend "everything in the world is broken" and "You're giving me a monopolis (after I told her she's giving me a mental illness)" haha. I love my kid, she's too smart!
OK pics are done uploading. Check back later today, there should be more postS (yes, plural) in here!!! Along with pics!!!
I plan to blog some more tomorrow. I'm uploading pictures to my photobucket right now. I have a freakin ton from this weekend. While I'm waiting, I'll talk about my weekend. Friday Vic didn't work til 2:30. I didn't have work and daycare/school was closed. So we hung out at home that day. We did a small bit of shopping that evening. Saturday we did some last minute things. Then we got ready and went downtown to the river (maumee river). Vic and I started going in July of 05...shortly before I found out I was pregnant with Kyliana. Back then we were just friends. Now we've carried on this tradition for the 5th time! It's gonna be crazy if we move, we'll have to start all over!
Anyhow, we went down there early so we could go to the little festival. They advertised a family fun place and we'd never been on that side of the river. So we decided it was too much to walk all the way around to the bridge, and we weren't going to pay to park, then drive to the other side and pay again to park...so we took a water taxi. First time ever in my nearly 7 years of being here that I was on the Maumee river, crazy! Kyliana and Kamaya both had their first boat ride. It wasn't a long one, but we got round-trip tickets and off we went. Kamaya got freaked out about the boat's high-pitched horn, but they were both fine. On the other side we found a bouncy place, balloon animals and face-painting...all of which Ky did. She got fireworks on her cheek and a ladybug balloon bracelet (which I also had to get one, but I drew the line at the face painting...I did that before I left the house haha).
So back to the water taxi we went. We got smart this year and brought Ky's potty with us...no more port-a-potty lines for us. We had reservations at Zia's which is authentic Italian at 7pm. YUM. Always go there for the 4th!! Then we got our blankets and found our spot to watch the fireworks. Toledo has good fireworks shows. We were quite early so we hung out on the blanket doing sparklers, snakes, and lighting up our glow necklaces and bracelets. Once the fireworks started Vic covered Kami's ears with a blanket and his hands. So LOVED watching them. And Ky always does. It was a great night.
Then today, SD was supposed to get Ky...think he did? You're right, he didn't...and didn't even have the common courtesy to call, color me surprised :rolleyes: So we decided that our kitchenette thingy needed some reorganization and bought another shelf. We don't have a pantry so we put shelves in the kitchenette and put our food on there. BOY does it look better already! I'm not done, but will be soon :). I love feeling orgainzed. Now on to the basement... :(
Some funny things Ky said this weekend "everything in the world is broken" and "You're giving me a monopolis (after I told her she's giving me a mental illness)" haha. I love my kid, she's too smart!
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Friday, July 3, 2009
Confession
Last summer...Vic and I weren't really preventing pregnancy. In fact, we had talked about having another baby. And we knew very well it could happen. We didn't take any precautions. We were trying, but we weren't avoiding either. And I KNEW I was pregnant even before I actually knew it. The day we did the deed, I knew I was going to get pregnant, just a feeling I had. And I went out and bought a 2 pack of digital tests....I was so impatient I tried testing like 6-7 days before my missed period...but I didn't tell Vic. Then I went to my mom's for the weekend w/0 Vic and took the second test with me. I couldn't wait any longer and took it 4 days before my missed period...not even with morning urine...and it felt like it took forever...but it said pregnant. I took a picture on my cell and sent it to vic. He had no idea I was even suspecting it! I was excited and so was he. The first person I told was Jeni...then the forum ladies. And I didn't tell anybody else until 12 weeks (my mom) and then at around 13 weeks I started telling my coworkers (I didn't want to steal my one coworkers thunder, so I waited til after her shower) and the daycare (though I had told one of the directors there so I could get Kamers on the waiting list). It was so exciting!!! Ahhhh I feel better.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Progress
I started my diet June 1st. My weigh-ins were always Mondays but then I switched to Fridays. The women on my mom's forum decided to do a weekly weigh-in thread on fridays....so I jumped on the bandwagon. As of my weigh-in on June 26th (Holy crap it's July already) I've lost 8lbs. So 8lbs in about 4 weeks. I can deal with that. I've lost 2inches on my waist and 1 from my hips. I think I'll be taking update pictures for my before, during and after pics this friday. I took before pics in a bikini, so I'll continue to do that every month or so. The thing that sucks the most about this is that by the time I get the body I want, it'll be winter and I won't be able to show it off! Oh well :( at least I'll have a hot body by next summer, right?
I have a lot more confidence and determination this time around. I've done Weight Watchers before and it just didn't work for me. The whole points thing was a hassle. Now I just look at the calories and add them up. I don't have to take my point slider everywhere with me or anything. Let's just hope I don't get discouraged and give up. I was never a quitter but it's hard to go from eating whatever you want to restricting.
I have a lot more confidence and determination this time around. I've done Weight Watchers before and it just didn't work for me. The whole points thing was a hassle. Now I just look at the calories and add them up. I don't have to take my point slider everywhere with me or anything. Let's just hope I don't get discouraged and give up. I was never a quitter but it's hard to go from eating whatever you want to restricting.
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